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Self acceptance is…

I don’t know how you define it cause I too don’t know how to select the right words to explain it. All I know it gives birth to lots of good feelings and emotions.

Accepting something means to be in agreement but self acceptance is an art. It builds someone differently. Who knew accepting you for who you are is a whole process? It takes;words of affirmation, positive thinking, cautious with your speech, embracing hope and loads of faith, happy living among many other attributes.

With this power anything is possible. It’s not magic or a miracle.

Calmness and ability to keep moving are the best things to ever master.

Out here trying to shine and in my room,locked behind those doors trying to heal myself.

Not clowning but just different capes for different situations.

Crying is ok but so is laughter.

The journey was rocky but you don’t have to always choose the rocky path so as to have a pity like story.

It’s ok to choose the better option.

When we grow up we tend to create our ideal family it may or may not consist of your blood relatives.

While living your life,busy with work,school,travels, networking etc. we meet people who bond with us in levels you can not really explain. They fill a space when they are no longer in your life you feel like something is missing,like in a puzzle.

This new family that we create does not only have your age mates. You have a random teacher who always made you feel great and determined in life,your friends’ parents and siblings, some random old guy/lady who helped you in a work environment etc.

Love them but do you show your family love,the family that raised you and was there through your life journey from being a child till now you have a new family of your choice?

Do not replace your blood family but instead merge both your families and have a happy time.

Simple is how I want it. Don’t grace me with all the beauty that will last for few hours then I go back to my natural state.

I wish I could just come with cornrows or matutas and Dera to my own wedding 😂. Have the best time ever with my friends and family… Drink and dance and in the midst just exchange vows then seal the deal and go on with the rave. Just the way the djs sneak in a gospel song in between some riddim or gengetone that is how I want us to sneak in our vows.

No new faces on this day,only close ones who have experienced us just for the vibes to remain at 💯. I don’t want the pressure of trying to meet people’s (I don’t know well) standards.

If only wishes were horses.

They say when you have an idea and it gives you butterflies,impliment it. What do you have to loose anyway? When it succeeds you are happy, when it fails you learn.

When you get such an attitude there is nothing blocking your way. Faith and courage is all that matters and the universe will take care of the rest.

I mean,if you long for success you will be attracting things related to success. According to one of my articles,you should imagine it, feel it then receive it.

Trying is better than not doing anything about it.

Make a change.

We hardly move on from our past even when you try to forget there is always a part of you that lives in the past, Its mission is to remind you that time.

Sometimes this is not a good thing. You need to embrace the present and make memories out of it.

Music,some people love old school music,it does not matter the genre but music made in the past and others go to an extent that they are to loyal that they can not give the current plays an ear. They are quick to push the next button or mute the advert if it is an online play.

Fear of the unknown they call it but I think it’s the lack of courage to face the unknown. A leap of faith,it is and maybe whatever your soul has been craving for might be that.

Being open minded is a gift that you would never regret possessing.

Think about all that we are enjoying today,all inventions and creations,what if the people who invented them feared trying new things?

Be curious and try to crave for new things,for experiences and also knowledge.

Not the kind that are rebuked by religion but personal demons. I call them that because they eat you up when you are peaceful and quiet then is when they attack.

Remember how people say that past midnight it’s when everything gets real and you kinda have a whole film of how a mess your life is,those are not stories but real life experiences.

I love my bed during the day. I pray that I fall asleep immediately I lay on it at night but on some days,days like today we ain’t escaping.

Sadly you don’t get to choose what nightmare you want to go through cause I would definitely choose the weak ones like why am I becoming fat but instead they choose family, a bullet to my chest,cliche but it gets the work done.

We all have something that weakens us. I am strong but this is the soft spot and not in a good way. Comes with alot of harsh memories and tears. I can persevere friendship cut offs but not family cut offs as much as it happens regularly. Like a diabetic this is a wound that can’t heal easily,might even never heal.

This is the real character developer. You create some traits that help you burry such pains.

Are you a comic fanatic? If you are you might relate to this statement, villains are who they are because of family neglect: either not enough love or care etc.

Are you a villain? How do you slay your demons?

We are appreciating women by dedicating this article to all women. I would love to share these words extracted from the flawless song by beyonce ft chimamanda ngozi adichie.



We teach girls to shrink themselves
To make themselves smaller
We say to girls
“You can have ambition
But not too much
You should aim to be successful
But not too successful
Otherwise you will threaten the man”
Because I am female
I am expected to aspire to marriage
I am expected to make my life choices
Always keeping in mind that
Marriage is the most important
Now marriage can be a source of
Joy and love and mutual support
But why do we teach girls to aspire to marriage
And we don’t teach boys the same?
We raise girls to see each other as competitors
not for jobs or for accomplishments
which I think can be a good thing
but for the attention of men
we teach girls that they cannot be sexual beings
in the way that boys are
Feminist: the person who believes in the social
Political, and economic equality of the sexes

We all have much to say about the women we are, the women in our lives and around us but all I wish we can do is just appreciate them and show them how important they are.
Every year we celebrate international women’s day and a theme is always allocated for us to all have a purpose and this year’s theme is WOMEN IN LEADERSHIP. The aim is to achieve an equal future in a COVID 19 world. Let’s all join this course and join all women celebrating by tagging #choosetochallenge and #IWD2021.

They say there should be BALANCE in life for the cycle to be complete. In Chinese they call it the yin and yang: two halves that together complete wholeness. Newton’s third law of motion states, for every action in nature there is an equal and opposite reaction. LOVE and HATE. LIFE and DEATH.

I don’t know how people do it, yes balance cause I feel like to reach a point where you are at a 50/50 in everything you do is hard. The percentages don’t match at all. Whenever you decide to be a social being you forget about yourself. Forget that you need attention but all these catching up; attending events is overwhelming to the mind. On the contrary, when you decide to work on you, love you, care for you, you end up losing ties with your social networks.

We are no longer young. No one tells us what to do. You are responsible for what you do, that’s the sad truth. I know then you didn’t enjoy being told what to do but deep down you wish someone could help. Occasionally, you have a breakdown. Too much is what can explain your state very well? Deep breathes are what you take. We rely on music, vacations, exercise, long drives, walks, poetry, writing, cooking, and dancing etc. to connect with yourself since you feel yourself drifting away.

Quotes, icons are what we use to justify our imbalance. Feeling that if Rihanna is out there looking pretty, still working on her Fenty beauty line and doing music and still looks pretty with some flawless skin then you should also be here busting your a*s forgetting she has people helping her.

Society poisoned and still poisons our minds. You just can’t do you because there is a bar set for you to pass. Your talent is recognizable if you aren’t educated. Like that aren’t enough you should first earn from that certificate so as to be recognized as some influential person. Actually you will be used as a good example/ role model to your juniors.

I just can’t do it, I crush a lot. I push people I love and care about away, wait I care about me. They don’t care unless it’s beneficial. Nicki minaj sang,’ people are going to love you and support you when it’s beneficial’.

Am not sure about you guys but most students invest all, in their outfits. I am not talking about financially only,of course they need the cash to purchase but in addition to all that there is emotions,environment,occasion,company,climatic conditions,trend, what impression to give/statement to display and what they have in their wardrobe.

Most students want to be chic, classic and look like they put an effort in their outfit. No one wants to dress exactly like the other even friends when they purchase the same outfit,each would add something that will be of statement on the outfit to establish their own style.

‘Are my edges well drawn?

I hope my makeup is ok, perfect eyebrows, neat hair, popping earrings.

should i do sneakers or loffers?

tie or no tie?

Is this outfit ok, are the colors matching? Does it look like the one I saw on Pinterest (an app that offers fashion suggestions)?’ these are some of the questions that run in our minds before stepping out of our hostel doors.

The academic highway provides a runway for us to be complimented or criticized by fellow comrades. This street has the realest judges so this is the best platform to showcase your fashion and style skill.

An advice to you all, this street is not for the emotionally weak🌸.

One of the most important things in a human survival is proper medical care. In Moi University, the dispensary is the major public health institution and it doesn’t look like it. It is located at the far end of school we can say it is just close to ‘mabs’ as to school of biological sciences. Moi university dispensary is such a disappointment as it doesn’t seem to give proper medical attention to its patients as it is expected to. We as students are being charged with medical fee of which we should get adequate treatment but it seems we are only paying for painkillers and condoms. Many cases of inactivity being heard forcing some people to rush over 5km to get emergency treatment.

It was just sometime back that a student was rushed to the institution and we had to lose him because the institution was not operating at night. Apparently it was past service hour. I thought such institutions operated 24/7 to handle such late night emergencies, or is it just my imaginations playing tricks on me? The dispensary, as much as it may be helpful to the eighth of the population, it should improve on its service delivery. This has made the students even though being charged medical fee; seek medical services from town more than 24km no matter the urgency the trust of the dispensary is all lost.

The institution rarely has doctors or any medical practitioners. Most of the time you have to wait for doctor to come in and at times the doctor can take hours to report to work. Surely free things are quite the struggle.

Moi University had conducted its election this morning and now at the end of the day the story changed. Students voted and counting began at 6:30 pm to determine who the lead was and who the tail was. As the counting continued, students remained restless and disturbed. Some had unrealistic egos and some used abusive words. All these were to be expected due to the pressure they all had.

The results were out and this is where the drama unfolds. The fans of the aspirants, who won, such as Brian Denzel Bolo, knew no bounds of their celebration. People shouted as they ran, all sort of noises witnessed and all types of things. New dancing styles I’ve never seen before. Promises were thrown left right in exchange of the demands of the students. Surely, praises can make someone say wonders or rather do wonders.

Some aspirants who lost had to deal with it as some had the pinch since they had spent a lot of money in the campaigns. Some were angry at others as someone once said being famous does not elect you, you have to show people you are worth their votes. Fliers were made some people carried each other while others rode bicycles. Jubilation is always the best part of the election as it is the only time during the whole period you have fun and actually feel proud. This is just a mirror of the society. We as students are creating a small country where we train to become Kenyans who can be accepted by the society after school.

The jubilation swallowed the sorrows as people went to celebrate while drinking. Just a pause, why do people celebrate while drinking? I guess we’ll have to find out soon enough. As a voter and behalf of the voters I am proud to have voted. It’s better to make a mistake you are going to suffer for than letting someone make the same mistake and you’ll also suffer.

Right to vote is under the university act which allows students to participate in their democratic rights. Moi University as always is counting hours as they line up to elect their new leaders. On Friday 7^th February 2020 the students are lining up in their various voting centers as they vote for their favorite leaders. According to one of the election official, the voting centers were open as early 7 am and were expected to be closed by 6 pm hoping everybody had voted by that time. They hoped for a free, fair and credible election as there were claims of election rigging.

Students were streaming in the voting stations as they were excited for the process. Each kept bragging about their candidates while some tried to lure others to voting for their candidates. The aspirants were also present and voted each one hoping for the best but prepared for the worst as in this race there must be a winner and a looser.  Each of them trying not to campaign in fear of disqualification.

“We hope that the leaders we are electing this time round will always take our interests as the major task and represent us. We do hope so because our student leaders have a tendency of leaning towards the administration’s side after elections”, one student commented. Is this a new dawn for the students? We sure hope so because it seems they are committed to voting. In comparison, this year many students participated in the process as to last year. As the voting continues, students are forming “kamukunjis” as they wait for the process to wind up and the counting to begin. More to follow as events continue to unfold in this institution.

Moi University is known as one of the best public university in Kenya. It appears in the rankings of the world too but all these seem to cover up the fact that there is something amiss. The institution has a lot of accusations which mostly affect the students. Let’s talk about the endless holidays and elongated study years. One is capable of spending up to six academic years on a four year course. This makes pursuing a degree in this institution seem like starting a learning career. Most may say that all these prepare us for a better future but if this is how the future looks like then I wouldn’t want to be in it. Life in this institution is almost like taking a vacation from reality because of all the struggles going in here while the outside world waits with its surprise.

Missing marks seem to be a major issue in the school making it a living hell to track one’s progress. The administrative iron fist rule seems to be also an issue as they would not make a decision from a consensus from both teams. The students are forced to clear their fees in order to acquire a hostel, no cooking in the hostels and sometimes staying days with black outs. Are we really to keep quiet or do we have a say in the way we are handled? The institution is increasing fees overnight and expects all to be okay. 

Lecturers should really do their parts as we also struggle to uphold our end. Some come to class once and you’ll see them at the exams next. They are the same lecturers hurrying to award you with a retake or a Supplementary exam. Some give you exams without even stepping into lecture halls. I’ve witnessed turning some job opportunities down to school delay. Some are forced to defer due school delay. It is said, time waits for no man and when opportunity knocks seize it. How is this possible if school is on the way? It is an endless sea of desperation and depression. The urge of starting and doing something more with your knowledge gets greedier every day. The school should really do something about this issue. Our peers are graduating before us and actually seizing all the job opportunities. This is a job fight and it is only fair if we start the completion all with the same go sign.